Janky Last Fridays - May Podcast


I can't tell if this is real
I've been gone so long
I've forgotten how to feel
New love for an old man
Who didn't see it coming
I wanna rewrite history
Want you to give your love to    
another man...But I'm in it now
 
Love is pain, pain is lovely 
I haven't felt a thing 
since I was a baby
New love for an old man
Who didn't see it coming
I wanna rewrite history
Want you to give your love to     
another man...But I'm in it now
 
This song is about feeling defeated after trying to feel something new; about refusing to trust intuition until it's too late.
 
I don't trust myself. No one should ever fully trust themselves. 
 
Still, you have to go for the things that feel right in life, even if it’s only to find that they aren't right for you.
 
For most of my life I trusted that what I regarded as my intuition was, in fact, my intuition. But as that trust diminished over time, I began choosing to rebel against it. 
 
I may be dressing comfort in intuition's clothing in order to maintain the status quo. There are actions that seem intuitive, actions that seem counter-intuitive, and some that seem to be both. What unites them all is that they have been born out of rebellion.
 
This struggle would be easier for me to deal with if my actions didn't affect other people, but as is usually the case with self-flagellation, the abuse extends beyond just me. 
 
In order to minimize potential pain for others, I've taught myself to make judgment calls only after weighing intuition against experience. 
 
My partner's faults must be negligible in order for me to stay with them. If they're not negligible, then I should get out of it sooner than later. 
 
Despite engaging with people on various levels of intimacy, I'm always weary of my feelings because they haven’t lasted.
 
It's part of my nature to want to reciprocate when someone's giving me love, even if I don't share their precise feelings. This has gotten me into trouble.
 
It's living with uncertainty that leads me to believe that I have masochistic tendencies. It's uncertainty that I'm weary of bringing other people into. I prefer keeping the uncertainty for myself. It's seems safer, kinder.
 
However. If I can be honest with another person throughout the process of intimacy, in regards to the contradictions that lay therein, I should have far fewer reasons to feel guilt.
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  1. I'm In It Now

Janky Last Fridays - April Podcast

Face the Night

 

Alone is what I wanted to be

A chance to finally breathe

Without an anchor on my heart

 

But I knew it wouldn't be very long

Before I heard that siren song

I had no choice at the time 

But to stand up and face the night

 

I thought that with an island of doubt behind

I could make it through the night 

And not have to face a thing

 

But I was much too blind to see

What was right in front of me

Till you looked me in the eye

And I stood up to face the night

 

You can't always wait till the time is right

You can't always wait for the warmth of the morning light

 

I will be your king and you can be my queen

We won't miss a thing if we stand up and face the night

 

 

This is a song about a man who seeks to cure his loneliness with aloneness, and finds that the price of his contentment is the loss of intimacy. For him, the weight of loneliness may be temporarily lightened by others, but can only be eliminated by embracing aloneness.

 

Loneliness cannot be cured by company. Aloneness is being cured by your own company. 

               

He finds nobility in the idea of facing the night, that home of bad habits, preconceptions, pretensions. It’s the willingness to be accountable – to others, but most significantly to the self. 

           

The risk he runs when using aloneness as a cure for loneliness is in using it to avoid accountability, and to justify his own evasions.

 

Ultimately, facing accountability can only be turned into action when he recognizes the self in the other and the other in the self.

 

Meeting a worthy partner is a call to arms. The moment chooses you. 

 

A mature person has the ability to turn loneliness into aloneness without sacrificing togetherness. Aloneness offers communion with the whole; togetherness offers communication with its parts.

 

“Alone” and “together” are eternal quiet lovers.

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  1. The Janks - Face The Night

Janky Last Fridays - March Podcast




 

This is about a man who values experience above all else, and willfully rebels against intuition by putting himself into a relationship he doesn't really wanna be in.

 

-My hands were tied when you took me for a ride,

I tried and tried but heart could not abide-

 

The chemical attraction to a partner combined with the intellectual desire for experience can create a perfect storm. The quickest way through a storm is straight into it. There will be pain, but pain is the byproduct of true experience.

 

-The dream is real, I wish you knew how good it feels,

to be led on by a clouded mind-

 

There's something empowering about giving into things the rational mind doesn't want. The key is making it feel like it's your own decision.

 

-The lights were red when you made your home in my head,

and every damn thing that you said put me deeper and deeper in debt"

 

Even when the signs are clear, one must be willing to break the law. If you don't go for things then all you'll do is grow older slower and "growing older" is what we should all be actively pursuing rather than the alternative, which is just passively "getting older".

 

I do not want a young man's mind.

 

I remember how stupid I was when I was younger (more inept than today if you can believe it), I thought other people had the answers. Then I got older and realized that nobody knows the answers...or the questions.

 

The illusion of pretending to have one's shit together without honest experience is only powerful until someone sees through it. I've seen through it. I hope you can see through me.

 

"I know it's wrong,

but I do it anyway"

-ZZ

 
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  1. Do It Anyway
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A Message to Our Fans - 11/2014

Welcome to our new site!  

First off, we would like to thank all of you for your patience since the release of Hands of Time.  We are very excited to finally bring you the Living In Denial EP! For those who have followed the band since Hands of Time or even before, you’ve seen the band experience quite a few changes. So, to catch you up…

Shortly after the release of Hands of Time, Leon LeDoux (our current drummer) and Paul Inder (bass) joined the Zmed Brothers supporting the release.  That August, we were invited to play a residency at The Satellite, and recorded Meet the Janks in anticipation.  As life goes, we were faced with many roadblocks just trying to release the record in time.  This left us with a product that we felt didn’t do the songs or our live show justice, so we decided to make it an exclusive release for the residency. (Save that CD! Four songs on there will stay exclusive!)  This CD, however, made it into the hands of a high profile producer who was impressed with the songs and wanted to work with us.  We began recording with him in late 2013, but as the months went on we came to realize that the recording process was taking more time than we expected and the songs were being changed into something that didn’t represent our vision; with Paul becoming busier producing and engineering projects at his own studio (Rosewood Music Studio), it was time for us all to part ways.  Fortunately, our great friend Branden Stroup from LA River Bend filled in for us on bass in the interim for our live shows (including our tour to SXSW)!  

Then came Nate Light.  

We met Nate Light, professional bass player with credits too long to list here, and hit it off quickly… mostly because our mutual love of Ween.  Shortly thereafter, we started to play regularly and it became apparent that it was time to write, record, create, and simply play as much as possible.  With the lineup in place and with our chemistry apparent, Nate helped spearhead the recording of the Living In Denial EP.  Now, with no more excuses, no more waiting on promises, and no one else putting their hands on our work, this EP is us simply catching up and recording these songs in a way that does them justice.  “Living in Denial” and “All Mine” (previously recorded on Meet the Janks) and "Old Enough" (previously recorded on Demon Dance) have been re-recorded for the new EP in order to bring them the sound and energy that they deserve.  “Lucky Stars" is a look to our future as one of many new songs we’ve written that will be released in 2015.

So, here we are facing another year full of risk and opportunity but we can promise these things...

We won’t skip steps.  We won’t leave you without music.  We will bring you every ounce of ourselves, every time we play.  We will be Janky.  This is the year.


We’re ready.


-The Janks                    

 
 

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